Less Obvious Ways
In my last Newsletter I addressed the more familiar and obvious scarcity issues. They are so common it is easy to catch ourselves, to become conscious of how we sabotage our greater good. Because they are so obvious it is easier to intentionally pave the way for a “course correction’
The obvious patterns of scarcity… not part of your story? Well if your life is not as you wish it to be, there are scarcity issues afoot. Be mindful, aware and merciless as you ferret out your scarcity tripwires. Only then can you heal the rift between what your say you want and what you really get.
Here’s a look at some sly and pervasive ways that scarcity showed up for me and kept the hum of lack in my life…
After working on my scarcity issues for many years, I believed my awareness was amped up enough for life to be working according to my desires. Truthfully my life indicated some progress on scarcity issues, some still troublesome with muddied results, indicating conflict in my belief system.
After tackling some scarcity issues… the more blatant beliefs, I knew without a doubt there were sly unseen mischief makers still afoot.
Wanting to get to the bottom of this situation I asked my unconscious to reveal the truth. Before I went to sleep, keeping my journal by my bedside, expecting answers, I asked such questions as… show me what is missing. What do I need to learn here? What are the trip wires that keep me from having what I truly desire?
Last Night as I was sleeping
I dreamt a marvelous error!
That a spring was breaking out in my heart. (Antonio Machado)
Nothing happened immediately. I was priming the pump so to speak. After a few nights, a wellspring of information came my way, in the usual symbolic language of dreams. Images of some habitual fears, beliefs of scarcity, layer by layer came up for examination. The images showed me undermining the progress I had made, muddying outcome causing inner conflict… I was not aware how my subtle fears of scarcity were masked, denied and overlooked.
Here’s some of what I learned that might be helpful to nudge you into seeing where the sly and sneaky beliefs of scarcity interfere with your greater good.
I found out quickly that I started and finished my days in the negative energy of scarcity and limits, instead of gratitude. Such as… “I didn’t have enough sleep”, and fret about making it through the day. After pushing the alarm a couple of times my thoughts go to “I am running late and there is no time to go to gym, meditate, or stretch” etc. Again, not “enoughness” or scarcity consciousness is taking up residence setting the mood for the day.
Does any of this resonate with you?
If I make it to the gym and weighed in, guess what my thoughts were about my body?
What about bed time when the to do list is barely touched? The tendency to have a scolding attitude towards self was frequently a bedtime companion.
Do you scold yourself at the end of the day/s?
Here are examples of sly murmurings of negativity and how scarcity slid. Scarcity of time, sleep, health and energy was evident, as well as lack of appreciation for my body and a lack of gratefulness for all that I have. This habitual pattern of negativity had power to influence my days.
What are your mischief makers?
How do you stop the barrage of negativity that hums in just below the radar? Is it so familiar that you don’t even notice that it’s there? First you have to decide to catch the sly slithering obstacle: become aware of its presence and how it influences your moods.
Our moods are powerful indicators or teachers of what is really going on at a deep level and will if we become mindful, alert us to the low grade ruminations that may be unconscious.
Stop and reflect without judgement but with compassion and understanding how a feeling of lack and negativity interferes with your deepest desires. Accept what you find. The action of stopping allows for the space of clarity, then action. A course correction if you will.
Back to my more subtle experiences of Scarcity. I journaled deeply into what my dreams were telling me and explored my faulty beliefs and old conditioning. I was as accountable and truthful as possible about my journey so that I could share with you…
With intention and purpose my morning self-talk changed to include journaling and gratitude.
Journaling helps us take what we are ruminating about out of the vapors, dives it concrete form and disarms our unconscious. It is as if the unconscious stops resisting change and says aah! she is finally going to get to it.
Gratitude is a powerful opening to love self and others. It keeps negative rumination and judgement at bay. At bedtime I am more grateful for the day, without being negative about my failings. Remember the first step is to catch oneself in the drone of negativity. After that it is a practice day in day out until the new is the “dance floor” on which you dance.
My journey took me a long time. I know much better now what helps and what doesn’t. It is my heart’s desire to shorten your struggle and your journey to your heart’s desire. You can have a much shorter trip.
Start walking, start walking towards Shams
Your legs will get heavy and tired.
Then comes the moment of feeling the wings
You’ve grown, lifting. (Rumi)
All the Best,